The Heartbeat

So up until this point being pregnant hasn't felt real. I mean I have talked to the baby, I have gotten very sick, and I guess I can tell my body is changing...but it still hasn't felt like there was actually a baby inside of me. However, last week my husband and I got to hear our baby's heart beat. It was truly incredible. I know its not the same thing as actually seeing the baby in the ultrasound, but it was pretty amazing. I just felt overwhelmed by the idea that there is a little life inside of me, it has a heart beat and everything. And the best part of it is, the baby is all my mine! I mean in 7 months, I am going to be a mother! Its crazy to think about, but after hearing that heartbeat I can't help but be amazed, honored, and excited. God chose Erik and I to take care of a life. I feel so blessed I cannot believe it! Thank You God for this mind-blowing gift!

Clumsy

A lot of people may not know this but pregnancy causes clumsiness. Not just an occasional tripping or stumbling, but full on embarrassing moments. So far I have cut my finger twice with a knife, tripped over nothing, fallen, dropped several dishes, poured water on myself, poured water on my husband, and stubbed my toes several times. Its funny cause I think its getting worse...However its hilarious! Each time something happens my husband makes sure that I'm okay and then just laughs at me. Originally I did not find this new pregnancy symptom so amusing, however now I love it. So far I haven't gotten too badly injured. And sometimes my clumsiness really helps my mood. Obviously being pregnant doesn't bring about the most tranquil happiness I've ever felt, so its nice to cut the tension. It's like constantly being in my own slap-stick comedy show. I mean if you can't laugh at yourself who can you laugh at?

What to Expect When You're Expecting...

As soon as it was confirmed that we were having a baby I went out and bought as many pregnancy books as I could get my hands on. I wanted to be super informed. I wanted to have something to say when people I knew with babies were talking about some medical stuff that all kids have, and I could say "oh yeah well did you know..." However these books have scared me so much.
"What To Expect When You're Expecting" is really code for "tell you lots of scary gross things about being pregnant." Most women love this book and I guess in some ways I love it too. It is nice to know what each ache and pain means or could mean. But it's really the "what symptoms could mean" that are scary. Several times I have thought that I was dying because of the things in these books. I called my doctor and she's keeps telling me everything is fine. Then I recite back to her all the things I learned about my symptoms in the book (as if I know more than her). Currently my doctor has asked me to stop reading my books. So now I just look at the pictures....

Needing to vent/wanting to share

I am writing this blog, because I need to sort out my thoughts. I am 23, a newly-wed, and 10 weeks pregnant. Some people may think this is crazy, however right now is the most exciting time in my life. I am in my own real-life adventure. It is all so exciting and scary.
I want to document this time in my life, I want to look back on this and see how much has changed and far my family and I have come.

As I mentioned before I am young and have been married for almost 2 years. I met my husband Erik in college in Chicago. We lived there for a few years and then moved to Colorado about a year ago. I have never lived anywhere besides Chicago until now, and Colorado has been a very nice replacement for my home. However we are now in the transition of moving back to Chicago. I want to be closer to my family for the birth of my first child. And my husband, loving me as much as he does, agreed. Moving back near my family will be an adventure in itself.

My husband and I are very excited for this new baby. And even though it is already giving us grief, we are ready for it...I think. To be honest I think we really don't know what to expect. All I do know is that I am going to love this child so much they will never doubt my love. Just as all mothers hope, I hope to be a good mom. Quirky as I may be I hope my child loves me back.

In this blog I will be telling the truth and nothing but the truth of motherhood.